No one truly understands…
no one truly understands the pain i go through.
it may not seem like from the outside but on the inside im dying and hurting worse than anyone can image.
i go through hell all the time….
my parents barely ever get along
i fear me and my mom getting kicked out if we piss off my stepdad the slightest
ive watched my mom be beaten by several guys
i get told that i need to lose weight by my dad and stepdad fairly often
everything i do isnt good enough and it has to satisfy my parents not me
if i dont meet their wants then its not good enough
everything gets threatened to be takin from me if im not perfect to their standards
i want love but im also terrified of it
ive sexually assaulted a couple times and its ruined my life
sometimes i just wish i could catch a break
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i wish he knew how much i still care
he thinks i didnt love him as much as i loved him but thats not true at all
sometimes i still think of us and cry i know i ended it and i know it was right but i cant hide the fact that sometimes i miss you
My mom carried me for nine months. She felt sick for those months with nausea, then she watched her feet swell & her skin stretch. She teared. She struggled to climb stairs, she got breathless quickly and she even suffered many sleepless nights. She then went through excruciating pain to bring me into this world. Then, she became my nurse, my chef, my maid, my chauffeur, my biggest fan, my teacher & my best friend. She’s struggled for me, cried over me, hoped the best for me and prayed for me. Most of us take our mom for granted. Reblog if you love your mom more than anything else in the world.
